Henry & Agnes

老公 有好多好多好聽 的 CD， 其中 Queen of the desert 原聲帶，第一首 I've Never Been To Me 是我最喜歡的，尤其是它動人的旋律，有低迴婉轉，有高潮激昂；有感歎，有沉思，有追憶，有覺悟，有著相當發人深省的內容，讓我百聽不厭。

它描述一位歷盡滄桑的女人，看見另外一位已婚婦女在悲嘆自己的命運，忍不住提出了一些忠告。她曾有放浪形骸的過往，憑著自己的青春美貎，享受著有如天堂一般的快樂時光，但到頭來，她只落得一場空，不但走投無路，連個肯友善相待的人都沒有。天堂是什麼？那只是人們用來欺騙自己的幻想，她勸那位徬徨的婦女，好好珍惜自己擁有的，懷抱中的寶寶，還有那個雖然有時會吵架，但真心愛她的男人，才是真正珍貴的，那才是愛。或許她到過天堂，但她從未找到過自我，請不要重蹈她的覆轍。

Charlene Marilynn D'Angelo（1950年6月1日 生於 加州好萊塢），通常被稱呼作「夏琳」（Charlene），是位美國歌手，因　I've Never Been To Me（《我從未找到自我》，作曲Ron Miller 和 Ken Kirsch）而廣為人知。但是她的星運欠佳，後續的專輯慘敗之後，於1985年退出Motown唱片，從此銷聲匿跡。不過她的 I've Never Been To Me 倒是成了經典，仍然深受喜愛，多次成為電影插曲，除了 Queen of the desert 之外，甚至還有一部電影直接就用這首歌來當作標題。

【I've Never Been To Me 中英文歌詞對照】

Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
嘿，這位太太，你這對自己的生命充滿怨恨的太太
You're a discontented mother and a regimented wife
你是個不滿現實的母親，是個失去自由的妻子
I've no doubt you dream about the things you'll never do
我深信你夢想著那些你永遠無法作的事
But I wish someone had talked to me like I wanna talk to you
但我真希望有人曾經對我說過現在我想告訴你的事

Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
啊，我曾到過喬治亞、到過加州，還有任何我可以去到的地方
I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
我牽過一個神職男人的手，一起在陽光下纏綿
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free
但如今我已無處可去、也沒有朋友，只因為當初我非得自由
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me
我曾經到過天堂，但我從未找到過自我

Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
求求你，這位太太，求求你，別就這樣走開
‘Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today
因為我希望能告訴你，為什麼今天我會如此孤獨
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
我可以在你的眼中看到太多過去的我
Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived a million lies….
可否請你分享一些我這曾經活在千萬謊言中的疲倦心情

Oh, I've been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht
啊，我曾到過尼斯和希臘的島嶼，坐在遊艇上啜飲著香檳
I've moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed ‘em what I've got
我曾像是珍哈露般的款擺在蒙地卡羅，秀著我的本錢
I've been undressed by kings and I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see
我曾被王侯寬衣解帶，看過好些普通女人看不到的事情
I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me
我曾經到過天堂，但我從未找到過自我

【Spoken 口白】

Hey, you know what paradise is? It's a lie
嘿，你知道天堂是什麼？那是個謊言
A fantasy we create about people and places as we'd like them to be
一種我們創造出來，所有人和所有地方都盡如我們期望的幻想
But you know what truth is?
但你知道真實是什麼嗎？
It's that little baby you're holding
那就是那個你懷抱中的小寶寶
It's that man you fought with this morning
那就是那個今天早上你跟他吵架
The same one you're going to make love with tonight
而今晚又將與他纏綿的同一個男人
That's truth, that's love
那就是真實，那就是愛

Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
有時候我曾經為了那我從未生過、或許可以讓我成為完整女人的孩子而哭泣
But I took the sweet life, I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
但我選擇了甜蜜的生活，我從不知道有一天我會由甜轉為苦
I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that costs too much to be free
我曾浪費我的生命，探索著那種讓我付出太高代價的、人盡可夫的自由生活
Hey lady, I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me
我曾經到過天堂，但我從未找到過自我

** 補充
【Queen of the desert 沙漠妖姬】  
  Soundtrack：
  1. I've Never Been to Me - Charlene
  2. Go West - Village People
  3. Billy, Don't Be a Hero - Paper Lace
  4. My Baby Loves Lovin' - White Plains
  5. I Love the Nightlife (Disco 'Round) [Original Version] - Alicia Bridges
  6. Can't Help Lovin' Dat Man - Trudy Richards
  7. I Will Survive - Gloria Gaynor
  8. Fine Romance - Lena Horne
  9. Shake Your Groove Thing [Original Mix] - Peaches & Herb
10. I Don't Care If the Sun Don't Shine - Patti Page
11. Finally [7" Choice Mix] - Ce Ce Peniston
12. Take a Letter Maria - R.B. Greaves
13. Mamma Mia - ABBA
14. Save the Best for Last - Vanessa Williams
15. I Love the Nightlife (Disco 'Round) [Real Rapino 7" Mix] - Alicia Bridges
16. Go West [Original 12" Mix] - Village People
17. I Will Survive [1993 Phil Kelsey Classic 12" Mix] - Gloria Gaynor
18. Shake Your Groove Thing [Original 12" Mix] - Peaches & Herb
19. I Love the Nightlife (Disco 'Round) [Phillip Damien Extended Vox] - Alicia Bridges